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Conscious Masochism

The Mentorship

an ongoing private space to integrate our sadomasochistic nature with compassion




A masochism healing and integration initiative from a compassionate and encouraging source. Masochism can be a lonely & scary road, and one that not many people understand unless they have really felt or experienced it on some level themselves. If you have, or are currently struggling with this, you're not alone. Becoming aware of the power these beliefs or tendencies have held over us throughout our lives is not a simple or short process, but a life long journey of developing self-trust and resiliency.

This is a one on one peer mentoring space to discuss the perspective of conscious masochism. Through this process, we will conceptualize the threads of masochism in our experiences and current self perceived identity, dissolving aspects that do not feel true for us or serve our health and happiness.

These conversations are essentially soul chats, gently guided by a process of inner inquiry.


This is not a cure, treatment, or substitute for counseling or psychiatric help. I want to affirm up front that I'm not a doctor, therapist, psychologist or life coach. What I am offering is a safe space to share your experiences, questions or thoughts on masochism, with someone who's been in the trenches and still battles those urges every day. Consider this peer support. That being said, not everyone's ready for that. 

If you have an active addiction, are trapped in an abusive relationship or are battling more significant mental health issues and you have not yet pursued or received deeper help, then this perspective may not be right for you on it's own yet. In addition to guided and supervised treatment of your choosing (whatever is right for you, whether clinical or spiritual), this can serve as a beautiful, soft and accepting space to openly share your ongoing masochistic tendencies or desires that limit or damage your inner connection to self-love, self-worth and belonging, easing you out of judgment, shame or fear.

Your privacy and confidentiality is of the utmost importance. These topics can come shrouded in shame, discomfort or embarrassment, I know from my own experience.Whatever you share will never leave our sessions. As you share what’s present for you, I’ll meet you with loving presence, permission to lean into your own inner wisdom, and offer practices to support with your own mindful integration.

Through this journey, we will...


+ focus on emotional, psychological and physical masochism; whichever facets are relevant for you

+ place context around our experiences with masochism in it's many forms, in our past and present

+ experiment with integrating our sadomasochistic nature mindfully into everyday life

+ share experiences that may need reframing through the lens of compassion and self-acceptance

+ gently address the trauma wounds and masochistic injuries we've incurred over the years

+ explore how our relationships are impacted by unaddressed sadomasochistic tendencies & beliefs

+ witness the feelings of neglect and shame our inner sadomasochist feels around it's desires

+ discover and play with personalized, healthy and safe alternative sources for masochistic supply

witness our romanticizing of pain & suffering

untangle from relentless self-sabotage

release our damaging addictions to darkness

nurture self-acceptance, tenderness and firm resiliency


we reclaim our power through redirecting our inner masochist, seeing through to it's truth, merely hungry for approval, challenge, struggle and meaning. 

Conscious Masochism Mentorship Includes...


+ 2 Calls with Rachel or Email Support (depending on which connection form is most comfortable)

+ Check-In emails between calls throughout the month to discuss challenging moments that arise

+ Conscious Masochism eBook (PDF Download, Binder Workbook Edition also available, mailed)

+ Conscious Masochism Safety Checklist and Resources to help you breakdown the beliefs that keep you attached to unsafe desires and how to sit with the uncomfortable longing

+ Sample Conscious Masochism Agreement to model your own after if you feel so inclined

Humanize your inner masochist, hold her hand, give her your understanding, acceptance and love. Breathe with her. 


She is grieving, terrified that she will starve. Scared her need for masochistic supply will never be filled without costing her safety and happiness. Scared that she truly doesn’t matter, that she isn’t worth it, that she's bad, that she doesn’t even deserve the little bit of pleasure in life that she allows herself, through pain.

How It Works

There is no set end point or destination in this process. This facilitation of compassionate peer support will be available whenever you may need. Take a month off whenever needed. Come back if you feel to. There are no requirements or goals to achieve.


There is a structure of content to shape and guide our conversations, as we dive deeper within integration and metamorphosis. But this program is merely a container for self-reflection to encourage self-acceptance and redirect unhealthy sadomasochism with my support, tools and love along the way.

We will  begin with an alignment call or email correspondence to ensure it's a good fit on both ends, to review together the content and structure of the program & answer any other questions you may have. Once you apply, please mention if you prefer email or a phone call and I will be in touch within 48 hours.

Choose Your Delivery

Mentorship via Email ($30 per month)

- Up to 5 email responses from Rachel per month, discussing concepts/feelings/experiences

- Allow a minimum of 24 hours for a response (replies may come sooner, but on average 24-48hr)

- You can cancel at any time, no commitments 

Mentorship via Phone/Video ($65 per month)

- 2 calls with Rachel per month, via phone or Zoom, discussing relevant concepts/feelings/experiences

- Allow anywhere from 45 min up to an hour and a half for each call, lengths will vary

- Email correspondence between calls, an average of one check-in email a week to discuss feelings

- You can cancel at any time, no commitments 

Reviews of the Conscious Masochism eBook

Breanna Meow from WhatTheSlut? (

“Conscious Masochism is an important book for anyone that experiences pain, anger, grief, and sadness. It teaches us that these emotions are a key part to understanding ourselves on a deeper level by surrendering to the process of emotionality rather than attempting to shut it out. Rachel explains that it is through the acceptance of our 'darker sides' that we can come to approach what is often considered negative, in a mindful and loving way. In this, we can then live healthier, more balanced lives. As someone who identifies strongly with both physical and emotional masochism, I have learned that conscious masochism can be used as a tool to feed my fire and creativity, rather than feel defeated or even judged for it."

Obscure Monologues (@obscuremonologues)

“So wow... this is such a unique book with a voice that stands out to me because a lot of my experiences have started to make sense from this perspective. I can definitely relate with what Rachel says and think it's something people would benefit from being open to at least considering, if not accepting. I really loved the Dare pieces that get the reader engaged in the process and thinking about things deeply. For anyone interested in new perspectives on being human, check out Conscious Masochism!"

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